der Gelo Belano,
Went out with my close friends from UMAK (nursing school). They have been my family during those stressful times and when I was living on my own. I could never imagine enjoying and surviving nursing school without them. Iba tlga bonding namen (I consider them my 2nd family) kaya naman I was so delighted when I saw them. Well Cates went here in New York to celebrate her success in passing the NCLEX at the same time we were waiting for Kate's exam results. While we were having lunch we got the news that she passed aswell. Kaya double celebration kame yesterday.
Yet on the otherhand I got pressureed. Somewhat everything just fell down on me. I got really worried kase now they all are expecting from me. Worse nagchain reaction na lahat. Naisip kona expectations ng family ko saken, ng mga friends ko na nandayan sa pinas, ng mga relatives ko, even you nadamay ko sa winoworry ko. Breakdown talaga ako kagabe. I usually encounter those times pag alam ko na I'm about to face something BIG. Next on my checklist na kase is to take the NCLEX and pass it! I cried kase alam ko na i'd be sacrificing a lot nanaman when I start to review. Just like what happened nung nagrereview ako for Nursing Local Board Exams. Aral lang tlga - hindi ako nakikigulo sa bahay- hinde ko pinapansin mga news bout a person in my past - 3 tao lang lagi ko kasama magstudy - kahet sila ate pia and carlo hindi ko kinakamusta. (Ganon ako ka addict magaral). Ewan ko lang ano magandang strategy ngayon since nasa ibang environment nanaman ako.For sure sasabayan ko nalang si Tin mag-aral para hinde ako guluhin ng magulang ko or as usual mag-iPod lang ako para may sarile akong mundo. Naweiweirdohan kana ba saken hubby ko??? (ahahahha!)
OK nako now! (promise) Kelangan ko lang tlga umiyak,uminom,mag-isip magisa (that's how i handle dilemas in my life) Ayoko na malaman ng Family ko na nahihirapan ako now na ang dame kong kelangan ayusin. You, Nary, Cates, Denisse, Anton lang ang tatakbuhan ko sa ganung klaseng times. (meron kase iba na hindi comforting, yung sesermonan kapa sa mga moments na confused and unsure nanga ako -mas lalo kase nakakapressure) Syempre kasama ka na dun sa category ng mga tao na "No-Secrets Allowed" about my life (kahet ayoko sabihen na umiinom ako lastnight,sinabe kopa din kase I know you have the right to know kase alam ko maiintindihan moko and you would make me feel better). *hugsies* I love you hubby ko! Thanks for being my bestfriend!
Love lots,
Rian Ruiz (Belano)
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